How Do I Live (Extended Mix)

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How Do I Live (Extended Mix) · LeAnn Rimes

You Light Up My Life

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What Is AuDHD? Meaning, Symptoms, and Diagnosis - Attachment Project

https://www.attachmentproject.com/psychology/audhd/

AuDHD – the combination of the autism (ASD) and attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) neurotypes has seen a startling rise over the past decade. But what is AuDHD? This article covers any questions you may have on ADHD and autism comorbidity.

Not so long ago, autism spectrum disorder (ASD) and attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) were widely viewed as mutually exclusive disorders. After all, each has its own specific symptoms and life-affecting characteristics.

However, in recent years, the co-occurrence of autism and ADHD is so commonly recognized in the general population that it spawned its own term – “AuDHD.” But it’s not just a social media trend; AuDHD has also been unequivocally confirmed in research.

So, if you or someone you love has wondered why social communication difficulties frequently accompany feelings of hyperactivity and difficulties focusing, AuDHD may be present.

AuDHD Meaning and Implications

Simply put, AuDHD is a combination of the word “autism” and the acronym “ADHD.” Therefore, someone with AuDHD has both neurotypes. Although studies vary according to how frequently the conditions co-occur, the most recent estimates are that approximately 70% of people with ASD also have ADHD. Yet, despite this high percentage, the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5-TR) didn’t include a diagnosis of AuDHD until as recently as 2013.

For people with AuDHD, life can feel like a constant contradiction. Their brains are hardwired to both want routine and fight against it. Therefore, catering to the needs of both conditions often means accounting for opposing needs.

For instance, the ASD side of someone’s brain may require them to set a strict schedule to cater to sensory challenges and feelings of overload. However, if they make a schedule that’s too rigid, the ADHD elements of their brain may battle to stay focused. Of course, such contrasting needs can create daily struggles and feelings of “not being good enough” – potentially leading to psychological distress.

Plus, considering how distinct the symptoms of both ASD and ADHD can be, receiving an AuDHD diagnosis can be difficult. We’ll discuss the process of AuDHD diagnosis later in this article.

As an extra note, a little-known piece of information is that an individual’s attachment style can influence the outcomes of their ASD and ADHD prognosis.

Main AuDHD symptoms

ASD and ADHD are quite paradoxical in nature: How can someone be both rigid in regards to routine and social structures, yet also find such routines and structures extremely difficult to follow? This paradox is due to how the symptoms of each disorder tend to be polar opposites.

For example, The American Psychological Association (APA) defines ASD as “a group of disorders…characterized by difficulties with social communication and social interaction along with restricted and repetitive patterns in behaviors, interests, and activities.”

As a note, autism, Asperger’s syndrome, and childhood disintegrative disorder (CDD) aren’t considered to be distinct diagnoses anymore – they are diagnosed under the umbrella term of ASD.

In contrast, the APA defines ADHD as a “behavioral condition that makes focusing on everyday requests and routines challenging.” This definition goes on to explain how individuals with ADHD experience organizational, planning, and focusing difficulties.

So, considering how disparate both of these neurotypes are, exactly what is AuDHD? And how can the symptoms of both of these neurotypes combine to create an AuDHD diagnosis?

The main symptoms of AuDHD combine the predominant ones of both ASD and ADHD – so they demonstrate a strong need for routine, but also a susceptibility to disruptions.

The Symptoms of AuDHD

AuDHD can manifest differently in each individual, demonstrating distinct patterns of behaviors, emotions, and executive functioning. However, the following are considered to be the main symptoms of AuDHD.

- Executive functioning challenges (a skill set that includes factors such as working memory, self-control, and cognitive flexibility)
- Sensory challenges (such as difficulties with touch, taste, and sound)
- Repetitive body movements (known as “stimming”)
- Learning difficulties
- Social challenges
- Emotional dysregulation (such as angry outbursts)
- Impulsivity
- Inattention

The first three symptoms would typically be associated solely with ASD, whereas the bottom two would be considered purely ADHD symptoms. Yet, the three middle symptoms (learning difficulties, social challenges, and emotional dysregulation) would commonly be seen in both neurotypes.

The overlap of symptoms between both neurotypes to create the dual condition of AuDHD demonstrates the need for specific and tailored intervention strategies. These strategies should be dynamic to fit the changing needs of the individual.

Plus, although the main symptoms of AuDHD may sound damning, there is a bright side that is important to highlight: People with AuDHD often report high levels of creativity. Therefore, tapping into this creativity may help such individuals manage and cope with the stress of their comorbid disorders.

Before we discuss these strategies, let’s consider the differences between AuDHD and “pure” ADHD.

AuDHD vs ADHD: What Are the Differences?

As mentioned previously, the symptoms of ASD and ADHD are typically at odds with each other. Therefore, there are some stark differences between “pure” ADHD and AuDHD.

People with ADHD have challenges with attention, impulsivity, and hyperactivity. In contrast, AuDHD introduces additional complexities by amalgamating the traits of autism with ADHD. The traits of autism include rigidity around routine, sensory difficulties, and self-stimulating behaviors such as stimming.

Therefore, the main difference between AuDHD and pure ADHD is that those with AuDHD have comorbid symptoms of autism along with their ADHD symptoms. The cognitive patterns associated with both neurotypes are linked. However, the neurological and developmental reasons for this are still not fully understood.

So, while people with ADHD have difficulties with routines, people with AuDHD simultaneously need routines but have difficulties adhering to them. This can create an extra layer of frustration and psychological distress – especially as AuDHD went unrecognized for a considerable amount of time.

AuDHD and Autism Comorbidity

As reported previously in this article, it’s thought that the prevalence of AuDHD and autism comorbidity could be as high as 70%. Meaning that this percentage of people with ASD have co-occurring ADHD.

Furthermore, despite a relative lack of recognition, it is widely believed that ASD is also frequently comorbid with conditions other than ADHD. Other autism comorbidities include developmental conditions such as dyslexia, dyspraxia, and epilepsy. Plus, according to research, although ASD is generally reported more in males than in females, females with ASD may be more likely to have comorbid disorders.

Similarly, it’s thought that “pure” cases of ADHD are also uncommon. Aside from ASD, ADHD is also commonly comorbid with developmental language and motor issues.

Furthermore, the neurotypes of both ASD and ADHD are comorbid with mental health issues such as anxiety, depression, and oppositional defiant disorder.

Of course, such high levels of comorbidity for both ASD and ADHD means that people with AuDHD could also potentially have other developmental or mental health issues. This suggests that interventions should take this high level of comorbidity into account, and factor in appropriate psychosocial, behavioral, and potential pharmacological elements.

AuDHD Test: What Is the Diagnostic Process?

There’s no such thing as an “AuDHD test.” This is because AuDHD is not, as of yet, recognized as a singular diagnosis in clinical settings.

However, if you’re concerned that you may have AuDHD, you can speak to your GP regarding a referral to appropriate professionals for separate ASD and ADHD diagnoses. Alternatively, if you’re concerned about your child, you can either speak to your GP or – if your child is school-aged – you can ask for a referral through their school.

Once referred, the diagnostic process for comorbid ASD and ADHD involves more than just taking an assessment or observing behaviors. It’s typically a multidisciplinary process – and is also dependent on the age of the individual.

Clinicians, including medical and mental health professionals, utilize standardized questionnaires, behavior rating scales, and environmental observations to collect information. This way, “snapshots” are gathered from as many domains of the individual’s life as possible to facilitate an overall impression and accurate diagnoses of both ASD and ADHD.

During the diagnostic processes, assessments and observations such as the following will be used to test for the presence of comorbid autism and ADHD. The assessments and methods used will depend on the region and age of the individual.

Testing for ASD may include measures such as:

- The Autism Spectrum Rating Scales. As a purely observational assessment, information is collected from caregivers, teachers, and other caregiving professionals to determine if a child’s behaviors align with those of ASD.
- The Autism Diagnostic Observation Schedule (ADOS). This measure involves the individual completing a series of tasks designed to assess cognitive functioning, behavior, and communication. A trained assessor observes their performance according to the criteria for ASD diagnosis.

Testing for ADHD may include measures such as:

- The Behavior Rating Inventory of Executive Functioning (BRIEF). The BRIEF assesses the ability to sustain attention, break down tasks into smaller components, and complete a target of focus. Different versions of the assessment are available for different ages.
- Conners Rating Scales. Used to assess social, behavioral, and academic functioning, this test includes both self-report and observational methods to assess for symptoms that align with those of ADHD.

Once a diagnosis of comorbid ASD and ADHD (AuDHD) has been reached, the following options for treatment may be considered depending on the individual’s presenting symptoms.

Treatment for AuDHD

Typically, treatment for AuDHD still predominantly utilizes the interventions and treatments associated with ASD. This may be because treatment measures associated with ADHD have not yet been fully researched for efficacy with individuals with AuDHD.

However, it’s important to take the individual’s specific needs into account when devising AuDHD interventions and treatment; recursiveness may be needed to ensure the “best fit.”

The following methods (or combination of methods) are commonly used in the treatment of AuDHD.

Psychosocial Interventions for AuDHD

Psychosocial measures aim to induce change in psychological, cognitive, behavioral, biological, and social factors that contribute to the symptoms of AuDHD. Psychosocial interventions for AuDHD may include:

- Therapy: Therapies, such as Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), can help devise strategies for challenging the difficult emotions associated with AuDHD. Moreover, CBT can highlight strengths such as creativity and help the individual use these strengths to improve focus and attention. However, it’s important to account for the individual’s social and communicative abilities when choosing a suitable therapeutic approach.
- Psychoeducation: Understanding the reasons behind the symptoms and difficulties associated with AuDHD can help an individual and their families adopt a more empathetic approach. Plus, there are various support groups depending on your region which aim to empower success through knowledge and support.
- Executive functioning techniques: Specific therapies (such as EFT) and groups that target executive functioning skills can help alleviate the difficulties associated with ASD and therefore ease AuDHD symptoms. These approaches improve cognitive, time management, organizational, and attentional skills.
- Support groups: There are multiple support options available for people who struggle with specific symptoms of AuDHD. For example, vocational support exists where people will assist with CVs or preparing for a job interview. Alternatively, assistance is available for issues such as improving concentration and reducing distress. Make sure to consult your local ASD and ADHD advice groups for further information.

Pharmacological Interventions for AuDHD

Pharmacological interventions for AuDHD, if necessary, should be done in conjunction with psychosocial methods. Strategies that focus on the behavioral, psychological, and social components of AuDHD should be the first line of call. After which, if the individual still struggles to cope, they can speak to their GP about pharmacological approaches. These approaches do not differ much from those used to treat individual ASD and ADHD.

Typically, a GP will choose to put someone on the lowest dose of medication possible for treating AuDHD and track their progress to determine whether it needs to be increased over time. Such medications may include stimulants and non-stimulants for ADHD symptoms. However, treating ASD symptoms with medication may be more complicated as there are no current FDA-approved medications for this neurotype. Instead, medications used to treat emotional dysregulation, such as antipsychotics, may be considered.

Final Thoughts on AuDHD

AuDHD is a comorbidity of the developmental neurotypes ASD and ADHD. People with AuDHD may lead a life of conflicting needs: one in which they require strict routines and schedules, but also struggle to adhere to these. Up until recent years, both ASD and ADHD were seen as distinct conditions, but recent research indicates that approximately 70% of people with ASD have ADHD. As of yet, there is still not a singular AuDHD diagnosis – instead, professionals may give separate diagnoses of ASD and ADHD.

If you’re concerned about whether you have comorbid ASD and ADHD, speak to your GP about referral for appropriate diagnoses. Professionals in the area will be able to cater to your unique needs, as well as help alleviate any distress you may be experiencing around them.

As a final note, remember that you can be an active participant in this process and you don’t have to go the journey alone. Although life might seem like a battle at times, there is help available: professionals, support groups, and social circles can help you develop personalized strategies that focus on your goals, strengths, and creativity.

Now listening to You Light Up My Life by LeAnn Rimes and The Mask by Randy Edelman...

On Granville Street in Downtown Vancouver. Summer of 2018.

Granville Street is a major street in Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada, and part of Highway 99. Granville Street is most often associated with the Granville Entertainment District and the Granville Mall. This street also cuts through suburban neighborhoods like Shaughnessy, and Marpole via the Granville Street Bridge.

The community was known as "Gastown" (Gassy's Town) after its first citizen - Jack Deighton, known as "Gassy" Jack. "To gas" is period English slang for "to boast and to exaggerate". In 1870 the community was laid out as the "township of Granville" but everybody called it Gastown. The name Granville honours Granville Leveson-Gower, 2nd Earl Granville, who was British Secretary of State for the Colonies at the time of local settlement.

In 1886 it was incorporated as the city of Vancouver, named after Captain George Vancouver, who accompanied James Cook on his voyage to the West Coast and subsequently spent 2 years exploring and charting the West Coast.

During the 1950s, Granville Street attracted many tourists to one of the world's largest displays of neon signs.

Towards the middle of the twentieth century, the Downtown portion of Granville Street had become a flourishing centre for entertainment, known for its cinemas (built along the "Theatre Row," from the Granville Bridge to where Granville Street intersects Robson Street), restaurants, clubs, the Vogue and Orpheum theatres, and, later, arcades, pizza parlours, pawn stores, pornography shops and strip clubs.

By the late 1990s, Granville Street suffered gradual deterioration and many movie theatres, such as "The Plaza, Caprice, Paradise, [and] Granville Centre [...] have all closed for good," writes Dmitrios Otis in his article "The Last Peep Show." In the early 2000s, the news of the upcoming 2010 Winter Olympic Games, to be hosted in Whistler, a series of gentrification projects, still undergoing as of 2006, had caused the shutdown of many more businesses that had heretofore become landmarks of the street and of the city.

Also, Otis writes that "once dominated by movie theatres, pinball arcades, and sex shops [Downtown Granville is being replaced] by nightclubs and bars, as [...it] transforms into a booze-based 'Entertainment District'." In April 2005, Capitol 6, a beloved 1920s-era movie theatre complex (built in 1921 and restored and reopened in 1977) closed its doors (Chapman). By August 2005, Movieland Arcade, located at 906 Granville Street became "the last home of authentic, 8 mm 'peep show' film booths in the world" (Otis). On July 7, 2005, the Granville Book Company, a popular and independently owned bookstore was forced to close (Tupper) due to the rising rents and regulations the city began imposing in the early 2000s in order to "clean up" the street by the 2010 Olympics and combat Vancouver's "No Fun City" image. (Note the "Fun City" red banners put up by the city on the lamp-posts in the pizza-shop photograph). Landlords have been unable to find replacement tenants for many of these closed locations; for example, the Granville Book Company site was still boarded up and vacant as of July 12, 2006.

While proponents of the Granville gentrification project in general (and the 2010 Olympics in specific) claim that the improvements made to the street will only benefit its residents, the customers frequenting the clubs and the remaining theatres and cinemas, maintain that the project is a temporary solution, since the closing down of the less "classy" businesses, and the build-up of Yaletown-style condominiums in their place, will not eliminate the unwanted pizzerias, corner-stores and pornography shops - and their patrons - but will simply displace them elsewhere (an issue reminiscent of the city's long-standing inability to solve the problems of the DTES).

 

Influence of Parseeism on the Belief in a Messiah

Conscience, Judas by Nikolai Ge, 1891

Another one of the books that I'm reading now is 'Caesar's Messiah: The Roman Conspiracy to Invent Jesus' (2005) by Joseph Atwill. I must admit that I'm further along in slowly reading some other informative books that I haven't yet mentioned or reviewed than in reading this book, but I will still quote from it now because I've already come across some interesting parts. "However, the New Testament and the histories of Josephus each imply that the Messiah was not this nationalist leader who had been foreseen, but rather a pacifist who encouraged cooperation with Rome. For example, consider Jesus’ instruction in Matthew 5:41: "when anyone conscripts you for one mile, go along two." Roman military law permitted its soldiers to conscript, which is to demand that civilians carry their 65-pound packs for a length of one mile. Roman roads had mile markers (milestones), so that there would be no dispute over whether or not this requirement had been met. Why would the Messiah foreseen by Judaism’s xenophobic world-ruler prophecies urge Jews to "go the extra mile" for the Roman army? When one compares the militaristic Messiah described in the Dead Sea Scrolls and other early Judaic literature with the pacifistic Messiah described in the New Testament and Josephus’ Testimonium, one aspect of the lost history of Judea seems visible. An intellectual battle was waged over the nature of the Messiah. The New Testament and Josephus stood together on one side of this struggle, claiming that a pacifistic Messiah had appeared who advocated cooperation with Rome. On the other side of this theological divide stood the Jewish Zealots who awaited a militaristic Messiah to lead them against Rome. It would explain how a Judean cult eventually became the state religion of the Roman Empire. A Roman origin would also explain why so many members of a Roman imperial family, the Flavians, were recorded as being among the first Christians. The Flavians would have been among the first Christians because, having invented the religion, they were, in fact, the first Christians. When considering a Flavian invention of Christianity, one should bear in mind that the Flavian emperors were considered to be divine and often created religions. The oath that they swore when being ordained emperor began with the instruction that they would do "all things divine… in the interests of the empire." But how did the church’s authority structure come into existence resembling the Roman military? Who established it and who gave the bishops such absolute control? Cyrpian wrote… "The bishop is in the Church and the Church is in the bishop… and if anyone is not with the bishop, that person is not in the Church." And why was Rome, supposedly the center of Christian persecution, chosen as the church’s headquarters? Sophisticated Romans like those Juvenal wrote about did not believe in the gods but rather in fortune and fate. The prevailing ethos of the patrician class was that the world was either ruled by blind chance or immutable destiny: "Fortune has no divinity, could we but see it: it’s we, we ourselves, who make her a goddess, and set her in the heavens." Judging from the works of Juvenal, many Romans saw all religious belief, including their own, as ridiculous. Juvenal was also cynical toward Judaism. His attitude regarding the religion suggests that many within the patrician class saw the religion and, no doubt, its offspring Christianity, as barbaric cults. "A palsied Jewess, parking her haybox outside, comes begging in a breathy whisper. She interprets Jerusalem’s laws; she’s the tree’s high priestess… She likewise fills her palm but more sparingly: Jews will sell you whatever dreams you like for a few coppers." Given this patrician cynicism, it is odd that so many members of the Flavian family were recorded as having been among Christianity’s first members. Why was a Judaic cult that advocated meekness and poverty so attractive to a family that practiced neither? The tradition connecting early Christianity and the Flavian family is based on solid evidence but has received little comment from scholars. Circulating tales that suggested they were gods was no doubt thought by the Flavians to be a good tonic for hoi polloi. The more an emperor was seen by his subjects to be divine, the easier it was for him to maintain his control over them. The Flavians certainly focused on manipulating the masses. To promote the policy of "bread and circuses" they built the Coliseum, where they staged shows with gladiators and wild beasts that involved mass slaughter. Imperial cults that portrayed Roman emperors as gods and workers of miracles appear to have been created solely because they were politically useful. The cults seem to have evoked no religious emotion. No evidence of any spontaneous offerings attesting to the sincerity of the worshipers has ever been discovered. The advantage of converting one’s family into a succession of gods appealed to many Roman emperors: 36 of the 60 emperors from Augustus to Constantine and 27 members of their families were apotheosized and received the title dius. Of course, inventors of fictitious religions must have a certain cynicism in regard to the sacred. Vespasian is quoted on his deathbed as saying, "Oh my, I must be turning into a god!" The cynicism that the patrician class felt toward religion was a subject of the satires of the Roman poet Juvenal. While the exact dates of Juvenal’s birth and death are unknown, it is believed that he lived during the era of the Flavians. One of his satires concerns Agrippa and Bernice, the mistress of Titus. Tradition has it that Juvenal was banished from Rome by Domitian. As Pontifex Maximus, Titus was responsible for a large collection of prophecies (annales maximi) every year, and officially recorded celestial and other signs, as well as the events that had followed these omens, so that future generations would be able to better understand the divine will. Titus was unusually literate. He claimed to take shorthand faster than any secretary and to be able to "forge any man’s signature" and stated that under different circumstances he could have become "the greatest forger in history." Suetonius records that Titus possessed "conspicuous mental gifts," and "made speeches and wrote verses in Latin and Greek" and that his "memory was extraordinary." Titus’ brother Domitian, who succeeded him as emperor, also used religion to his advantage. In addition to deifying his brother, Domitian attempted to link himself to Jupiter, the supreme god of the Roman Empire, by having the Senate decree that the god had mandated his rule. Not only did the Flavians create religions, they performed miracles. In the following passage from Tacitus, Vespasian is recorded as curing one man’s blindness and another’s withered limb, miracles also performed by Jesus: "One of the common people of Alexandria, well known for his blindness… begged Vespasian that he would deign to moisten his cheeks and eyeballs with his spittle. Another with a diseased hand prayed that the limb might feel the print of a Caesar’s foot. And so Vespasian… accomplished what was required. The hand was instantly restored to its use, and the light of day again shone upon the blind." The Gospels record that Jesus also used this method of curing blindness, that is by placing spittle on a blind man’s eyelids. "After thus speaking, He spat on the ground, and then, kneading the dust and spittle into clay, He smeared the clay over the man’s eyes and said to him, "Go and wash in the pool of Siloam" – the name means "sent." So he went and washed his eyes, and returned able to see." Roman emperors appointed all the high priests recorded within the New Testament from a restricted circle of families who were allied to Rome. By selecting the individual who would determine any issue of "Jewish customs," the Caesars were managing Jewish theology for their own self-interest. Of course, what other way would a Caesar have managed a religion? Rome exercised control over the religion in a way that was unique in the history of its provincial governments. Rome micromanaged Second Temple Judaism to the extent of even determining when its priests could wear their holy vestments. In spite of these efforts, Rome’s normal policy of absorbing the gods of its provinces did not succeed in Judea. Judaism would not permit its God to be just one among many, and Rome was forced to battle one Jewish insurrection after another. Having failed to control Judaism by naming its high priests, the imperial family would next attempt to control the religion by rewriting its Torah. I believe they took this step and created the Gospels to initiate a version of Judaism more acceptable to the Empire, a religion that instead of waging war against its enemies would "turn the other cheek." The theory of a Roman invention of Christianity does not originate with this work. Bruno Bauer, a 19th-century German scholar, believed that Christianity was Rome’s attempt to create a mass religion that encouraged slaves to accept their station in life. In our era, Robert Eisenman concluded that the New Testament was the literature of a Judaic messianic movement rewritten with a pro-Roman perspective. Rome attempted not to replace the gods of its provinces but to absorb them. By the end of the first century Rome had accumulated so many foreign gods that virtually every day of the year celebrated some divinity. The Romans also used religion as a tool to assist them in conquest. The leader of the Roman army, the consul, was a religious leader capable of communicating with the gods. Thus, when Rome went to war with the Zealots in Judea it had a long tradition of absorbing the religions of its opponents. If Romans did invent Christianity, it would have been yet another example of neutralizing an enemy’s religion by making it their own, rather than fighting against it. Rome would simply have transformed the militant Judaism of first-century Judea into a pacifist religion, to more easily absorb it into the empire. In any event, it is certain that the Caesars did attempt to control Judaism. From Julius Caesar on, the Roman emperor claimed personal authority over the religion and selected its high priests. Perhaps the most unusual connection between Christianity and the Flavians, however, is the fact that Titus Flavius fulfilled all of Jesus’ doomsday prophecies. As mentioned above, the parallels between the description of Titus’ campaign in War of the Jews and Jesus’ prophecies caused early church scholars to believe that Christ had seen into the future. The destruction of the temple, the encircling of Jerusalem with a wall, the towns of Galilee being "brought low," the destruction of what Jesus described as the "wicked generation," etc. had all been prophesied by Jesus and then came to pass during Titus’ military campaign through Judea - a campaign that, like Jesus’ ministry, began in Galilee and ended in Jerusalem. Thus the Flavians are linked to Christianity by an unusual number of facts and traditions. Early church documents flatly state that the family produced some of the religion’s first martyrs, as well as the pope who succeeded Peter. The Flavians created much of the literature that provides documentation for the religion, were responsible for its oldest known cemetery and housed individuals named in the New Testament within their imperial court. Further, the family was responsible for Jesus’ apocalyptic prophecies having "come to pass." If Christianity was invented by the Flavians to assist them in their struggle with Judaism, it would merely have been a variation upon a long-established theme. Using religion for the good of the state was a Roman technique long before the Flavians." 

There are long articles on Wikipedia about the Christ myth theory and Historial Jesus that can be of use. I'm reading Atwill's book and the books of some other authors in order to see what they have to say because I don't have a negative or a positive view of Christianity. Another book on the subject that I'm reading now is 'The Christ Myth' (1909) by Arthur Drews, and I will quote from it too because I've already read a big chunk of it. There is a surprisingly long article about this book on Wikipedia. "Among no people was the longing for redemption so lively and the expectation of a speedy end of the world so strong as among the Jews. Since the Babylonian captivity (586-536 B.C.) the former Jewish outlook upon the world had undergone a great change. Fifty years had been spent by the Israelites in the land of the stranger. For two hundred years after their return to their own land they were under Persian overlordship. As a consequence of this they were in close connection politically and economically with the Achaemenidean Empire, and this did not cease when Alexander overthrew the Persian power and brought the whole Eastern world under Greek influence. During this lengthy period Persian modes of thinking and Persian religious views had influenced in many ways the old Jewish opinions, and had introduced a large number of new ideas. First of all the extreme dualism of the Persians had impressed a distinctly dual character upon Jewish Monotheism. God and the world, which in the old ideas had often mingled with one another, were separated and made to stand in opposition to each other. Following the same train of thought, the old national God Jahwe, in imitation of the Persian Ahuramazda (Ormuzd), had developed from a God of fire, light, and sky into a God of supernatural purity and holiness. Surrounded by light and enthroned in the Beyond, like Ahuramazda, the source of all life, the living God held intercourse with his creatures upon the earth only through the instrumentality of a court of angels. These messengers of God or intermediate beings in countless numbers moved between heaven and earth upon his service. And just as Angromainyu (Ahriman), the evil, was opposed to Ahuramazda, the good, and the struggle between darkness and light, truth and falsehood, life and death, was, according to Persian ideas, reproduced in the course of earthly events, so the Jews too ascribed to Satan the role of an adversary of God, a corrupter of the divine creation, and made him, as Prince of this world and leader of the forces of hell, measure his strength with the King of Heaven. In the struggle of the two opposing worlds, according to Persian ideas, Mithras stood in the foreground, the spirit of light, truth, and justice, the divine "friend" of men, the "mediator," "deliverer," and "saviour" of the world. He shared his office with Honover, Ahuramazda's Word of creation and revelation; and indeed in most things their attributes were mingled. An incarnation of fire or the sun, above all of the struggling, suffering, triumphant light, which presses victoriously through night and darkness, Mithras was also connected with death and immortality, and passed as guide of souls and judge in the under-world. He was the "divine son," of whom it was said that Ahuramazda had fashioned him as great and worthy of reverence as his own self. Indeed, he was in essence Ahuramazda himself, proceeding from his supernatural light, and given a concrete individuality. As companion in creation and "protector" of the world he kept the universe standing in its struggle against its enemies. At the head of the heavenly host he fought for God, and with his sword of flame he drove the Daemons of Darkness in terror back into the shadows. To take part in this combat on the side of God, to build up the future kingdom of God by the work of a life-giving civilisation, by the rendering fruitful of sterile wastes, the extinction of noxious animals, and by moral self-education, seemed the proper end of human existence."

A slow reading of books about Michelangelo and Leonardo da Vinci is on my agenda

Pieta by Michelangelo, 1499

Since I already quoted what Georg Brandes had to say about Leonardo da Vinci in his book 'Michelangelo: His Life, His Times, His Era' (1921) in earlier posts, I've decided to also include quotes about Leonardo from 'Michelangelo' (1974) by Howard Hibbard. Hibbard's biography about Michelangelo is the first biography that I've read about this artist, and I enjoyed reading it almost as much as Brandes's book, though Hibbard had a lot less to say about Leonardo in his book. "The speed and assurance of Michelangelo’s technique seemed to open a new era in the production of marble sculpture, just as his imagination and insight had created a newly mature style. The several Roman works, produced in a few years, and the David, already described as 'half-finished' in February of 1502, gave a promise of unprecedented productivity that is reflected by new contracts and demands on Michelangelo. With the encouragement of Pietro Soderini, the Operai of the Cathedral commissioned Michelangelo in April 1503 to carve twelve Apostles, one a year for twelve years. During this time he was also working on three round Madonna compositions, one of them painted; and in December 1503 he was given a first payment for the mysterious Bruges Madonna, which was finished by 1505. As if this were not enough, late in 1503 the almost legendary Leonardo da Vinci had begun working on a sixty-foot mural of a battle between Florence and Milan, and in the following year Michelangelo was asked to paint an equally large composition. Then in March of 1505, Pope Julius II ordered him to Rome to create a tomb of unprecedented size and magnificence. By the time that episode ended, with the cancellation of the contract the following year, Michelangelo’s youth was at an end, his dreams shattered. The great artistic event of 1500 in Florence was the return of Leonardo da Vinci (1452-1519) after an absence of some eighteen years. He brought with him studies for a commission he had received in Milan, which survive in the form of a beautiful cartoon. Here, as in all of Leonardo’s works, we find an interest in grouping for unity, not only on the plane of the design but also in its imaginary depth - an intertwined physical, psychological, and spatial unity that had been, when he began his career, the decisive new force in Florentine art and the first sign of what we now label the High Renaissance. In the early years of the 1500s this style, matured and sophisticated, became the school for every Florentine artist, most notably Raphael, and for Michelangelo as well. In April of 1501 Leonardo exhibited another version of this cartoon and it created a sensation. Vasari says that for two days it attracted to the room where it was exhibited a crowd of men and women… who flocked there, as if they were attending a great festival, to gaze in amazement at the marvels he had created. When Michelangelo arrived fresh from his Roman triumphs the following month, instead of being greeted like a conquering hero, he may have found himself overwhelmed by the fame, accomplishment, and charm of the tall, handsome older artist. Michelangelo may have begun the athletic Doni Madonna in 1503. It is in tempera, with the hard, emphatic shot-colors that we associate with later Quattrocento masters like Ghirlandaio and Signorelli. Thus it is somewhat old-fashioned, especially if we remember that Leonardo’s miraculous Mona Lisa was underway in the same year. The frame of the Doni Madonna has on it the arms of the Strozzi family: Angelo Doni, the patron, married Maddalena Strozzi late in 1503 or early in 1504. A Mary of heroic proportions, seated on the ground, twists to adore and receive the Christ child, who is evidently supported by Joseph behind her - a highly artificial grouping that must have been inspired by Leonardo’s experiments. There is a beautiful chalk study from life, of astounding maturity, for the head of the Virgin. Red chalk drawings were an innovation of Leonardo’s; Michelangelo’s drawing in that novel medium seems so advanced that it has occasionally been dated several years later. There was also a profound difference in the natures of these two supreme geniuses of Italian art. As Kenneth Clark wrote in his fascinating book on Leonardo, "We see that the antipathy, the sdegno grandissimo as Vasari calls it, which existed between the two men was something far more profound than professional jealousy; sprang, in fact, from their deepest beliefs. In no accepted sense can Leonardo be called a Christian. He was not even a religious-minded man… Michelangelo, on the other hand, was a profoundly religious man, to whom the reform of the Roman Church came to be a matter of passionate concern. His mind was dominated by ideas - good and evil, suffering, purification, unity with God, peace of mind - which to Leonardo seemed meaningless abstractions, but to Michelangelo were ultimate truths. No wonder that these ideas, embodied in a man of Michelangelo’s moral, intellectual, and artistic power, gave Leonardo a feeling of uneasiness thinly coated with contempt. Yet Leonardo held one belief, implicit in his writings, and occasionally expressed with real nobility: the belief in experience." The word 'Renaissance' refers to a rebirth of antique forms and ideals, and it seems at first odd that the style should have been Florentine rather than Roman. Florence (Florentia) had been merely a provincial town in Roman times; there was very little local antiquity to revive. But Rome, which was governed by the popes, was all but deserted during a crucial period when the Great Schism placed the real popes in Avignon and feeble anti-popes, or none, in Rome. Even after its restoration as the papal capital in 1420, Rome necessarily remained little more than a provincial town. It was considerably smaller than Florence, which was a rich and powerful city of some forty or fifty thousand inhabitants. Florence had produced those precocious literary giants, Dante, Petrarch, and Boccaccio, who established Tuscan as the vital literary language of Italy. Their works in prose and verse, together with the money in the Florentine banks, may have furnished the humus needed for sustained growth of the other arts. Dante already records the fame of Cimabue and Giotto. By 1378 the painters of Florence were allowed to form a separate group within their old guild because their work was 'important for the life of the state.' This statement reflects the growing self-consciousness of the Florentines, who by 1400 had a sense of identity and uniqueness that was probably unknown in the Middle Ages and that led to an identification with the great city-states of antiquity - Athens and Rome. Florence was also ahead of its time in the foundation of democratic institutions, but it was somewhat unstable in its government. In the mid-thirteenth century a first democracy, il primo popolo, was formed by the Guelphs (originally the pro-papal party), although the guilds, especially the prosperous cloth guilds, really ran the city. Florence was notable for its industry, which has been called a small-scale prototype of modern capitalism; and, as in many capitalist countries today, there was an impoverished lower class of manual workers. Like many Florentines, Michelangelo was born to a Guelph family that cherished a republican ideal. He grew up, however, under a bureaucratic oligarchy headed by Lorenzo de' Medici. The growth of Medici power can be traced back more than a century before Michelangelo’s birth. A series of disasters had struck Florence in the mid-fourteenth century: a flood in 1333, bank failures in 1339, and the Black Death in 1348. Out of these calamities grew a mercantile oligarchy led by two rival families, the Albizzi and the Alberti. In 1387 the Alberti were forced into exile - and so one of the brightest lights of the Florentine Renaissance, Leon Battista Alberti, was born in Genoa. Florence prospered; Florentia, the city of flowers, became the city of the florin, the local coin with an image of a lily that became an international medium of exchange. The Medici bank gradually became so rich that it could control much of Florentine life, but in general the members of the family avoided visible office, governing from behind the counter. Cosimo de' Medici, later called reverently Pater Patriae, triumphed over the Albizzi and by 1434 was exercising control through a financial stranglehold that allowed him to tax his political enemies out of existence. Medici supremacy became overt under Cosimo’s son Piero (d. 1469), and Piero’s son, Lorenzo il Magnifico (1449-92)."

One of the books that I've been slowly reading is 'Victorian Science: A Self-Portrait from the Presidential Addresses of the British Association for the Advancement of Science' (1970) by George Basalla, William L. Coleman, and Robert H. Kargon. I bought this book some years ago, but I must admit that I've read only a small chunk of it so far. Still, I've already come across some interesting parts that I'd like to quote. But, before I do that, I can mention that I recently finished reading 'A Brief History of Time: From the Big Bang to Black Holes' (1988) by Stephen Hawking. My knowledge of this famous physicist is almost nil. I didn't enjoy reading this book all that much, partly because some of its contents didn't interest me and partly because Hawking wasn't a very good writer. Well, as far as I know, because of his disability, Hawking couldn't write himself and had to tell another person to type what he wanted. Still, I did find almost half of the book's contents to be interesting, and I don't really have anything negative to say about the book or about Hawking. Carl Sagan's books are more interesting to read for me, though I must say that Sagan at times veered into the area of political propaganda in his books. Hawking didn't really do this in this work, which was his first published book, and I appreciate this. Anyway, the following is a quote from 'Victorian Science'. "Ali, the son-in-law of Mahomet, the fourth successor to the Caliphate, urged upon his followers that men of science and their disciples give security to human progress. Ali loved to say, "Eminence in science is the highest of honours," and "He dies not who gives life to learning." In addressing you upon texts such as these, my purpose was to show how unwise it is for England to lag in the onward march of science when most other European Powers are using the resources of their States to promote higher education and to advance the boundaries of knowledge. English Governments alone fail to grasp the fact that the competition of the world has become a competition of intellect. Much of this indifference is due to our systems of education. I have ill fulfilled my purpose if, in claiming for science a larger share in public education, I have in any way depreciated literature, art, or philosophy, for every subject which adds to culture aids in human development. I only contend that in public education there should be a free play to the scientific faculty, so that the youths who possess it should learn the richness of their possession during the educative process. The same faculties which make a man great in any walk of life - strong love of truth, high imagination tempered by judgment, a vivid memory which can co-ordinate other facts with those under immediate consideration - all these are qualities which the poet, the philosopher, the man of literature, and the man of science equally require and should cultivate through all parts of their education as well as in their future careers. To England steam and electricity have been of incalculable advantage. The ocean, which once made the country insular and isolated, is now the very life-blood of England and of the greater England beyond the seas. As in the human body the blood bathes all its parts, and through its travelling corpuscles carries force to all its members, so in the body politic of England and its pelagic extensions, steam has become the circulatory and electricity the nervous system. The colonies, being young countries, value their raw materials as their chief sources of wealth. When they become older they will discover it is not in these, but in the culture of scientific intellect, that their future prosperity depends. Older nations recognise this as the law of progress more than we do; or, as Jules Simon tersely puts it - "That nation which most educates her people will become the greatest nation, if not to-day, certainly tomorrow." Higher education is the condition of higher prosperity, and the nation which neglects to develop the intellectual factor of production must degenerate, for it cannot stand still. If we felt compelled to adopt the test of science given by Comte, that its value must be measured by fecundity, it might be prudent to claim industrial inventions as the immediate fruit of the tree of science, though only fruit which the prolific tree has shed. But the test is untrue in the sense indicated, or rather the fruit, according to the simile of Bacon, is like the golden apples which Aphrodite gave to the suitor of Atalanta, who lagged in her course by stooping to pick them up, and so lost the race. The true cultivators of the tree of science must seek their own reward by seeing it flourish, and let others devote their attention to the possible practical advantages which may result from their labours. There is, however, one intimate connection between science and industry which I hope will be more intimate as scientific education becomes more prevalent in our schools and universities. Abstract science depends on the support of men of leisure, either themselves possessing or having provided for them the means of living without entering into the pursuits of active industry. The pursuit of science requires a superfluity of wealth in a community beyond the needs of ordinary life. Such superfluity is also necessary for art, though a picture or a statue is a saleable commodity, while an abstract discovery in science has no immediate or, as regards the discoverer, proximate commercial value. In Greece, when philosophical and scientific speculation was at its highest point, and when education was conducted in its own vernacular and not through dead languages, science, industry, and commerce were actively prosperous. Corinth carried on the manufactures of Birmingham and Sheffield, while Athens combined those of Leeds, Staffordshire, and London, for it had woollen manufactures, potteries, gold and silver work, as well as shipbuilding. Their philosophers were the sons of burghers, and sometimes carried on the trades of their fathers. Thales was a travelling oil merchant, who brought back science as well as oil from Egypt. Solon and his great descendant Plato, as well as Zeno, were men of commerce. Socrates was a stone-mason; Thucydides a gold-miner; Aristotle kept a druggist’s shop until Alexander endowed him with the wealth of Asia. All but Socrates had a superfluity of wealth, and he was supported by that of others. Now if our universities and schools created that love of science which a broad education would surely inspire, our men of riches and leisure who advance the boundaries of scientific knowledge could not be counted on the fingers as they now are, when we think of Boyle, Cavendish, Napier, Lyell, Murchison, and Darwin, but would be as numerous as our statesmen and orators. Statesmen, without a following of the people who share their views and back their work, would be feeble indeed. But while England has never lacked leaders in science, they have too few followers to risk a rapid march. We might create an army to support our generals in science, as Germany has done, and as France is now doing, if education in this country would only mould itself to the needs of a scientific age."

Just finished watching Hamlet (1964) and Garbo Talks (1984)...

Just finished watching Creed III (2023) and Jaws (1975)...

Rise and fall of the expertly built AMC Javelin

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The AMC Javelin proved that a car with the right shape and the right engine could be built by a small company, but not before releasing a floundering fish first.

One look at what poor old American Motors Corporation passed off as its sporty "image" car in 1966 was both laughable and sad all at the same time. The monstrosity that was hurriedly pressed into production was called the Marlin, a name that refers to one of the toughest, sleekest and most difficult-to-catch trophy fish found in any ocean. Unfortunately, AMC's version began floating belly-up from Day One.

What AMC's designers did was graft a huge fastback roof onto an otherwise bland and innocent-looking Rambler Classic in an attempt to pass it off as a competitor to the Ford Mustang and Plymouth Barracuda. The result was predictable. In the two brief years of the Marlin's existence (1966-'67), a mere 7,100 buyers deemed the car worthy to park in their driveways.

Meanwhile, a growing list of mid-sized performance cars from Ford, General Motors and Chrysler were being sold as rapidly as they could be bolted together. The Mustang, Camaro, Firebird and Barracuda headed this new Ponycar category and AMC was about to join the race.

The Marlin, as it turned out, was simply a temporary marker while an honest-to-goodness competitor was being readied.

Its replacement, the Javelin, was a two-door hardtop (the only body style available) penned by a small group of designers headed by Richard Teague, the company's chief stylist. Prior to bringing his considerable talent and experience to AMC in 1961, Teague had toiled for GM, Packard and Chrysler.

The Javelin was unlike anything else American Motors had ever put into production. To begin with, it was downright attractive, a word that was rarely applied to any of the company's other vehicles. Teague's car sported a long hood, gently sloping roofline and short rear deck, common Ponycar ingredients in those days. Secondly, the Javelin, with its optional Go Package, including a 280-horsepower 343 cubic-inch V8 that emphasized straight-line performance while ignoring AMC's usual mantra of fuel economy. It was a shameless appeal to the expanding 18-25 year-old target group of youthful buyers . . . and it worked like a charm.

The first Javelins for 1968 reached dealer showrooms in late September of 1967. Although the company had a lot of ground to make up, the cars were an immediate hit. They were lively performers, not so much from their comparatively modest engines, but due to the fact that their power-to-weight ratios allowed them to keep up to the competition.

There was yet one more surprise forthcoming from AMC. Six months after the Javelin's launch, the company brought out the AMX. This two-seater was essentially a Javelin that had been shortened by about a foot. Suddenly, staid old AMC had discovered high performance.

As with most of its competitors, AMC heavily invested in a racing program for its new car, entering both the 12 Hours of Sebring, Fla., endurance race and the Trans-Am road race series.

By the end of its inaugural year, the company had sold more than 56,000 Javelins, compared with 45,000 Barracudas, 235,000 Camaros and more than 317,000 Mustangs. The fact that a bare-bones Javelin stickered for $120 less than the Mustang certainly encouraged buyers to a degree.

For its encore, the '69 Javelin could be ordered with an optional 315-horsepower 390 cubic-inch V8. It also marked an expansion of the company's racing program to include National Hot Rod Association (NHRA)-sanctioned drag racing, something that would have been considered corporate heresy only a few years earlier.

After three years of steady sales, AMC brought out its second-generation Javelin for 1971. This version was longer and wider and also featured prominent wheel arches on the front fenders, an aid to aerodynamics, but a detraction from the car's previously smooth lines.

Also, the largest engine in the Javelin lineup became a 401-cubic-inch V8 that cranked out 330 horsepower and thirsted for premium gas.

By then, the tide was beginning to turn against musclebound Ponycars. As 1972 approached, tightening engine emissions regulations and stiff insurance premiums were taking their toll on unbridled horsepower. Sales of the Javelin, which had actually peaked in its initial year, remained stalled below the 30,000-per-year mark. By 1974, its final year of production, Chrysler had already decided to shut down its Barracuda and Dodge Challenger lines, and Ford had already downsized its class entry, renamed the Mustang II. To make way for the infamous glass-bubble Pacer, AMC brass made the decision to kill the Javelin.

But the company had made its point. It proved that even with limited resources, but with the right design, impressive range of V8 power and pinpoint marketing strategy, it could take on the much bigger competition and hold its own in the showroom.

The Javelin had done its job and done it well.

How Do I Live

Provided to YouTube by Universal Music Group

How Do I Live · Trisha Yearwood

Songbook: A Collection Of Hits

℗ 1997 UMG Recordings, Inc.

Released on: 1997-01-01

Producer: Trisha Yearwood
Producer: Tony Brown
Mixing Engineer: Chuck Ainlay
Stringarranger: Ron Huff
Mastering Engineer: Hank Williams Jr.
Composer Lyricist: Diane Warren

Now listening to Nausicaa Of The Valley Of The Wind by Joe Hisaishi and Solitude/Solitaire by Peter Cetera...

On St. Georges Avenue in North Vancouver. Summer of 2018.

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St. Georges Avenue is well-integrated into the city’s road network, accessible via major arteries like Lonsdale Avenue. Its location near Central Lonsdale places it within walking distance of public transit (e.g., SeaBus to Vancouver) and the Highway 1 corridor, enhancing connectivity.

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